The Tender Touch.

The shrill noise of the ringing alarm woke me up in the morning.Iwoke up but my thoughts went back to the day, not long ago,when a soft tender touch used to wake me up every morning. The touch was very warm & pleasing- it was the touch of a mother.
Ours was a small Guju family,very closely attached in which every mother of the house depended on the other for company.My mother being most talkative,contributed a major portion of this company.Ever since i experienced existence,i was so used to seeing her around,that it inculcated a weakness in me(as it happens so often) of taking her existence for granted.As a child, i remember being very attached to her,but adolescence,teenage,college-life,friends took her roll- the attachment reduced though the love & sense of belonging remained.
Then came the day of agony & misery for us.I still distinctly remember that moment when i was told that she was sick beyond cure.It was only then i understood what helplessness was all about. With the best of treatment available,we could not save her.She never complained.In fact,at times when we broke down,she would console us till that fatal day when she left us forever.We lost everything that day except tears.Our home looked like a house that day.Our hearts could never accept what our minds knew.
The days went by to become months,months turned to years.We were wrong to think that time would be the only cure.Time could never cure,it could only heal the wound.Even now when i think of her,my heart sinks with the same intensity,the tears flow with same velocity,the eyes long to see her--just for a moment.To whom could we now redeem her immense debt of love,care & blessings?
On occasions,birthdays,festivals--amongst the smiles.when a silent invisible tears rolls down,the heart realises that we have just missed her.Perhaps,we shall never stop missing her.However I miss her the most,the moment i wake up every morning by the shrill of alarm.

P.S. - this to remind everyone ,do come on saturday,1st may 2010 at 5pm at Prempuri Ashram in her memory .

Comments

  1. UnknownApril 28, 2010 at 7:45 AM

    Dear sir,

    Thats really a heart felt thought i must say. While reading it I could actually understand what you must be going through.. In this instance I may consider myself stupid to leave my parents and come to australia. However I am happy to say that I talk to my mom every single day since the day i have come to australia. We meet online face to face everyday. And while reading your post, I think I should really cherish and throughly appreciate the love of my mom.

    THank you for writing your thought so clearly. I think, i cant thank you enough.

    Love,
    Maulik

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  2. Sahil MoraMay 2, 2010 at 5:10 AM

    Hi Sir,

    Thanks a lot for the session on 1st may, it was very nice and is good food for thought. Takes me back to the days where we use to come to class to listen to this rather than learn a/c :)

    Many thanks to Pooja as well for creating this blog, great idea to be in the loop for these inspiring words.

    Thanks again!

    Morarji

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  3. UnknownMay 2, 2010 at 8:03 AM

    Hey Sir,

    This blog of urs really touches ma heart...In fact I had tears in ma eyes at the end of it...I can vry wel understand wt one goes through when ur near ones r nt around...I ve realised the imp of ma parents n family only after moving out 2 Antwerp even though I m in touch with dem completely...Thers is always a part of me who as yet wants 2 b with dem but cant:(.....

    M glad 2 hear 4m u lke dis, as while reading dis one really does ve 2 b present in ur class (jk)...also glad 2 c tht u r bcoming techno savy....sir if u ve started using comps ther is one mor thg which u shd start using i.e a Mob Ph...atleast ur students abroad can b in touch with u...

    thanks 4 putting ur thoughts on dis blog....keep writing....

    Love
    Khushboo

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